Mama left with Ope and the house was deserted. I went there
to pick more of my things. After a week, Kassim called Toyin begging her to
plead with me to forgive him and return home. She can’t return home just like
that. In fact, myself and my husband are already filing for divorce between
both of you.
All these are like medicine after death. Go and continue to
sleep with your sister, you beast. Toyin insulted him. You must be the reason
why my friend had not been able to conceive all these years. This is part of
the abominations baba talked about the other day. You better go and sort out
yourself with God before it is too late. Kassim kept sending me text of apology
but I never reply any. We didn’t divorce but we were not living as husband and
wife again until our pastor intervened.
He has called me severally, asking me why he has not seen us
in church for some time. He also had visited our home but met nobody there. I
was afraid to honour his appointment but Toyin encouraged me to. A meeting was
slated for 10am the next Saturday. I went with Toyin to see our pastor but on
entering into his office, I saw Kassim who was already sited with elder James.
His head was buried in shame when he saw us. Good morning
sirs, we greeted pastor and elder James together. Good morning my daughters,
pastor responded cheerfully. You may have your seats, he directed us to sit on
the same couch with Kassim but I didn’t know when I screamed, “I won’t sit with
this beast”. Immediately, I was given a plastic chair from the church to sit
on.
I ensure I positioned my chair in a way our eyes will not set
on each other. Let us pray, pastor instructed, we all bent our heads in prayers.
His prayer was short and simple. Brother Kassim what did you say happened
between you and your wife that made her left home?
He kept quiet for minutes until pastor repeated the question
again. He sluggishly stood up and said “we had a slight argument and since I
have been apologizing for her forgiveness. Please pastor help me beg her that I
am truly sorry. Pastor looked at me, I looked at Toyin in disbelieve. To err is
human and to forgive is divine.
The scripture admonishes us to forgive ourselves of our
offences so that our father in heaven can forgive us, pastor continued his
sermon of forgiveness as I sat down dumbfounded. So he didn’t tell the pastor the
truth. Slight argument? I was so angry like I should walk out of the pastor and
the elder but they are both old enough to be my father so I controlled my
temper.
Sir, I want to leave until Kassim is willing to say the
truth. Before pastor opened his mouth to say anything, I had carried my bag and
dragged Toyin by her hand as we headed towards the door. My daughters, please
don’t go, let us not give room to the devil, the pastor begged but all fell on
deaf ears.
I became more angry than before. Kassim’s pretence and lies
made me more sick than what he did to his sister. I felt like killing him when
pastor called him brother Kassim. I wished pastor knew what he has done. I
started attending Toyin’s church but I tried to avoid baba(their pastor)
because of our unfinished deal with him.
Even with Toyin around, I felt very empty outside my
matrimonial home. I started giving attention to guys that were coming close. It
is not what you are thinking. It’s just for friendship so I could get my mind
off my predicament. Those friendships didn’t last because they were all after
my honeypot. I vowed never to thread that path no matter the loneliness.
The picture of what happened between us and prophet Ade still
hunts my conscience. I was married but single. My life was miserable and I
became a shadow of myself. Nothing interests me anymore. I abandoned most of my
projects because of lack of concentration.
